People have said to me, “Stop being so negative about bipolar disorder!” People feel like they can critique me and make sweeping statements like that at any moment in time. It comes with being read by so many, I suppose.

So whenever someone says I’m writing about bipolar disorder too negatively, I imagine it won’t be the last time, either. I, however, feel I’m quite realistic about bipolar — neither overly negative or positive.

To me, bipolar is negative

Some people consider bipolar a gift. And while bipolar has increased certain aspects of my life, such as empathy for others, I consider it the furthest thing from a gift.

I consider bipolar disorder to be an absolute curse. Bipolar disorder is inherently negative because it causes me pain every single day. If you want a gift like that, that’s your business, but I certainly don’t.

I understand that’s not everyone’s experience with bipolar disorder, but it’s certainly mine, so this is naturally the perspective I’m going to take. And, for the record, I hate the fluffy bunny, rainbows, and lollipops side of bipolar (the mania version) that some people claim exists.

But don’t ignore how I am positive

I’ve written piece after piece about bipolar disorder that offers positive coping techniques for everything from hypomania to depression. In fact, some people call me inspirational. Don’t misunderstand, you certainly don’t have to find me an inspiration. I’m just saying that what I do and the tips I offer on how to deal with bipolar disorder is very positive.

(In case you were wondering, I have a book about my disorder. I know firsthand how hard it is to deal with the realities of a chronic illness and wanted to end in a way that brought hope to people, as I believe there’s always hope.)

I’m not going to list for you all my writings that are positive (although you should read the one about fighting bipolar disorder and not giving into suicide). But they’re out there, if you want to find them.

In the end, being negative about bipolar disorder is OK

Sometimes I’m being plain ol’ negative about bipolar disorder, and I consider this OK. I have mood and thought fluctuations just like everyone else and sometimes I just can’t bring positivity to the table. And this just makes me human.

Not everyone has the superhero strength to be positive all day, every day. I’m human. You’re human. We change every day. And this brain disorder changes with the weather, too. That means that I’m going to take various positions but I’m always going to try and offer hope. I’m sorry if that doesn’t come through to everyone.

And if you’re feeling negative about bipolar disorder, it’s OK. This thing sucks. And if you want to say it, I say don’t let others make you feel bad about it. It’s self-expression. It needs to be what you really feel.

This article was originally published on Natasha Tracy’s blog.

Natasha Tracy is a renowned speaker and award-winning writer. Her blog, Bipolar Burble, consistently places among the top 10 health blogs online. Natasha is also an author with the acclaimed Lost Marbles: Insights into My Life with Depression & Bipolar to her credit. She is considered a major influencer in the area of mental health. She has written for many sites including HealthyPlace, HealthLine, PsychCentral, The Mighty, Huffington Post and many others.

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