Mike Hoskins

One of classic rock artist Tom Petty's great tunes is called "The Waiting," and the chorus proclaims that "the waiting is the hardest part."

Well, when it comes to diabetes doctors, Tom Petty got it wrong. That's not the case. At least not for me.

No, the waiting to see my endo is actually the easy part. Scheduling and actually going to my appointments is the hardest part in my Diabetes World.

Case in point: It's been close to a year since my last visit to my endocrinologist. I've had a couple visits on the books, but for general life busyness I have cancelled them all -- including the most recent one that was set for Monday, Jan. 21.

This isn't a new phenomenon for me, and it's not a one-time isolated occurrence either. It's the same kind of avoidance I found myself slogging through at this time last year, when it had been 10 months since my last endo encounter. This past summer, I'd mulled over the idea of changing endos and actually going to see a new doc who's a fellow type 1 PWD (person with diabetes). But I didn't...

Maybe I can blame the fact that I'm a guy, and we're more likely to procrastinate when it comes to taking care of our health.

Looking at my meter, the 30-day average of 244 makes me cringe -- that comes out to an estimated 9.0%, according to this A1C conversion calculator. And that's not even going back to previous months in 2012, when my routinely high BGs probably pushed me into the A1C double digits. YIKES!

This is no way to live. Things need to change... no, "things" don't -- I do.

Today is Feb. 1 and it's my 34th birthday.

In just over a month, I'll hit my 29th year of living with type 1.

So, it's time to step up and get back on track.

2012 was a year in which I focused on change -- career change (by joining the 'Mine) and dealing with my own mental health challenges. But D-Management kind of fell to the back burner. Months on end were filled with diabetes burnout, and even flipping through the pages of the book Diabetes Burnout by the great Dr. Bill Polonsky didn't help kick me into gear. Maybe right now it's just the time of year, since winter is typically a season filled with more gloom thanks to colder weather (particularly here in the Midwest) and being stuck inside more often.

Why did I cancel this most recent endo appointment? Sure, it was a busy work day for me, but a couple of hours away from my computer wouldn't have set me back too far. Instead, my biggest reason for cancelling was that I simply dreaded the visit because of an expected high A1C, scolding from my endo, and just feelings of inadequacy when it comes to my D-management routine for the past year.

Recently, I read Riva Greenberg's new book offering tips and tricks to doing better in life with diabetes. (Don't forget: Today is the last day to enter our current giveaway for that book!) At first I didn't think I'd get much from it. I thought much of it didn't apply to me, because so much seemed so obvious. But one of her tips stayed with me, and just hit me with full force the other day. One of those "Do's & How-To's" she wrote about was knowing your A1C, blood pressure, and cholesterol. Geez, Amy co-wrote a whole book about knowing your numbers a few years ago, too! Of course, I know the importance of this trio and why these test are necessary and critical health barometers. But it's been so long since I've seen my endo... I just don't know what my numbers are right now. So in a sense, I'm flying blind. A first step is to get a handle on my numbers and, taking some more musical inspiration from Tom Petty, Learning to Fly the healthy way once again.

Earlier this week, I re-connected to my insulin pump for the first time in about two months. I had taken a pump hiatus for the third time in as many years, trying to motivate myself late last year to get back in the swing of things by mixing up my D-routine up. Unlike the past two pump breaks, this one didn't do the trick; I deterred from over eating (thanks to my emotional eating habits) by the need for the extra task of injecting rather than just pushing a few buttons; and my blood sugars were just as high as they've been in a long time... So unlike my past MDI experiences, I doubt this one will lead to any drop in my A1C.

But it feels great to be back to pumping, even though I'm using an older pump that's now out of warranty as I anticipate the release of a next-gen device later this year (soon, I hope!). Surprisingly, my BG readings have been pretty stellar this very week, although it's been a busy one, and that is helping me stay motivated to take better care of myself.

Scheduling a visit with my endo is next on the list. The time for waiting on that is over. Along with lab tests, I need to also get some other checkups and tests done, including a long-overdue stress test to check on my heart function. Today would be the perfect day to do that, actually, since it is the start of American Heart Month. This is Wear Red (for Women) Day, too, but I'm a little conflicted since I usually wear blue in honor of Blue Fridays. Clothing aside, the point is that I'm finally stepping up to put my diabetes health first.

So, as Tom Petty might sing: it's time for me to head into the Great Wide Open, to avoid having a diabetes Breakdown, and get back into my swing of things Learning To Fly again with my endo. You know, because we want to avoid those blood sugar "excursions" that can make you feel like you're hanging out in a Room At The Top of  the glucose world, and then subsequently Free Fallin' off a cliff into that scary hypo abyss.

In case you couldn't tell: I'm a Petty fan. C'mon, it's my birthday... let this classic rock lover have his fun!

OK, musical reference aside... It's time to get on this.

{NOTE: Amy says she's also guilty of endo-crastination; hasn't seen her doctor in many months :( .}

 Since we're only a month into 2013, it's a perfect time to make those changes happen and put an end to our endo-crastination. 

Oh, and that endo reference reminds me of one last little nugget of D-humor from a fellow DOC'er, who tweeted recently: "Why are diabetes docs called Endos if they can't end my diabetes? At diagnosis, they should be called Startos!" HA!

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